OOPS! I did it again…
August 9, 2008 at 8:13 pm | In General, Personal | 4 CommentsTags: Experience, Fun, Life, People
Yup! I did it again! Now u must be wondering what I did, that I’m so excited about. Well, I’ll give you some background first.
I like roaming with my friends… Let me rephrase that… I love roaming aimlessly with my friends. Roaming aimlessly means going places without knowing where we are headed to. This can only happen if we have our own vehicle. So… I love roaming aimless with my friends in my dad’s car. No problem right… Ummm… Actually, there is a small problem. My car doesn’t have central locking, so I sometimes (make that often) forget the car keys inside the car and lock the car from outside. Yes, I did it again today…
I’ve become an expert at forgetting my key inside now.
I’ve forgotten the key inside the car almost half the times I’ve gone roaming with my friends. Well, let me just recall, twice with my family, far away from home, so we had to break the lock (well, almost break it
). Thrice with my friends. Once with my sister, that’s today.
The first time with my friends was when we had gone roaming, we roamed around half of North Goa, came to Miramar Beach, and there I forgot the key. Luckily, my house is close by so I could call dad with the keys. The second time was when we had eaten at Fidalgo and were supposed to go roaming after that. This is also within the city, so I called dad (again). But it wasn’t my fault, Loverboy distracted me. The third time, we had gone to Chorao island by ferry, I was the first person to get into the ferry while coming back, when we had almost reached back to the jetty, I realized I had forgotten the keys, and both my friends shouted out at the moment, NOT AGAIN!!! But I had managed to open the lock with a twisted rod in less than 15 seconds.
If dad knew I had gone to Chorao, and I had locked the car with the keys inside, IN THE FERRY, I don’t think I’d get the car again. Its good he doesn’t know… yet.
Only my friends present at the moment there would know the heat of the moment. Except dEE, of course, who didn’t know what was going on till I got the rod and stuck in inside the car door after removing the strip off the window… coz he was too busy listening to music. Till then he was wondering why Loverboy is running up and down
you should have seen the expression on his face.
I had vowed I would get central locking installed then, but my friend suggested a “more economical” solution. He said, just tape a metal rod below the car.
SMART!
Today I took my sister for a treat to “Chaat Street”, since her exams got over, then I had to go to Bata showroom to buy sandals for myself coz the old one broke. Didn’t find anything in the Panjim Showroom, so came to the St. Inez showroom, and I forgot the keys again. So far, this is the closest to my house, so I called dad n he told me, if I ever forget the keys again, I’m not getting the car again.
I hope I continue getting my car to go around with my friends… and continue forgetting my keys inside giving my friends a little adrenaline rush.
I don’t like it…
August 6, 2008 at 10:40 pm | In Personal | 1 CommentTags: Experience, Feeling, Question, Thought
I’m facing certain problems these days. I’m having problem focusing, holding on to my thoughts. It just keeps flowing without stopping. I feel this tremendous urge to write something, anything, but I can bring myself to write anything sensible. Coz my thoughts keep evading me. So, here I am writing a post about not being able to write.
I don’t really know what’s going on, but I do know there is something on my mind which is not allowing me to hold on to my thoughts. I just keep drifting from one thing to another. At one moment I’m thinking about my class, at another, I’m at Appheval waterfalls with Shreyas where there is no water.
At one moment, I’m in the Microwave lecture, listening to Chetan sir, at another, I’m at Rachol in the ferry with Manchit. I can’t help it. It keeps happening over and over. Yesterday I sat to write a post about trusting people around us, I didn’t even realize when I started writing about the fun I was having with my friends at the beach.
I don’t know what’s happening. But whatever it is, I’m not liking it.
I’m trying…
August 3, 2008 at 11:09 pm | In Personal | 2 CommentsTags: Answer, Book, Experience, Feeling, Life, Novel, People, Question, Thought
I’ve just finished reading “The Zahir” by Paulo Coelho. There is a part in the book which speaks of leaving your past behind, just letting it go, freeing yourself from all your past mistakes behind, and moving on. Being reborn each day as a new person. Having no memories. Just living the present.
How much of our past can we leave behind? We still live in a society where our past is what decides what kind of people we are. How much about ourselves can we forget? How much of our lives can we erase from our memory?
There are many things said about “forgiving and forgetting”. What does it mean to really forgive and forget? (I think now I have a better understanding of what my friend has written in “Forgive and Forget << Waves n Sands”) You either forgive, or you forget… forgetting is practically impossible, unless you meet with an accident and lose a part of your memory. Forgiving is easy… COMPARITIVELY!
But what does forgiving mean? Whom to forgive? What to forgive them for? Why to forgive them?
They say, the first step to free yourself of some memories is to first forgive yourself… this is actually the hardest part. What do you forgive yourself for? Nothing… what it means is that to first acknowledge the fact that you have done something wrong, accept it, and leave it behind. (Again, how much can you leave behind?) Then acknowledge that the person in context has done something wrong, accept it and forgive… let go… (Again, how?)
You can’t forget the pain you’ve suffered, neither can you forget the pain you’ve given… at least I can’t. All you can do is learn to live with it. It’s not easy… but it’s possible.
(My thoughts evade me here… I feel the urge to write, but I can’t hold on to my thoughts…)
Learning to live…
August 2, 2008 at 7:35 pm | In General | 1 CommentTags: Book, Experience, Life, Novel, People, Thought
That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don’t expect to get anything back, don’t expect recognition for your efforts, don’t expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are.
Paulo Coelho in The Zahir
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