It’s Raining…
November 10, 2009 at 4:43 pm | In General | Leave a CommentTags: Experience, Feeling, Friend, Life, Memories, Nostalgia, People, Thought
It’s been raining for the past 3 days. (It’s supposed to be winter now) it’s all cloudy, dark and dull. The monsoons have a lot of memories connected to them as far as I am concerned… I live in a place where the beginning of monsoons marks the beginning of school (End of summer to be precise). And a lot of important events in my life have transpired during the monsoons.
When I was a kid, it was all about the littlest of things… Getting new books, new bags, new rainy footwear, new raincoat/umbrella… and then going to school during the rains, meeting friends after a whole two months, playing in the water, jumping around in the muck 
…
The monsoons have always marked a special place for me… somehow, every monsoon has brought something special for me. And it generally comes with a mixed surprise. These things bring out the best in me, and they’re generally so strong that the hold the potential to turn my life upside down. And every time I am in a slightly unstable state, and it rains, my thoughts overpower me and I feel my life turning upside down…
Not everything can be explained, not everything can be reasoned with, but these things just leave a mark. And every time I think of them, the feeling just gets stronger, and leaves behind a smile. 
Random Passing Thought…
November 9, 2009 at 8:17 pm | In General | Leave a CommentTags: Experience, Feeling, Life, People, Question, Thought
How hard it is for us to express our feelings sometimes. Even the most basic of em… and sometimes, it’s very difficult for us to even accept those feelings.
It so happens that we may be at a point in our life when everything is going the way it is supposed to… everything seems just right. And we don’t wanna screw it up. But invariably circumstances bring us to a point wherein we know some things are not in the best interests as they should be in.
But a lot of times we end up doing something stupid. We ignore those facts. We are not ready to accept the truth. We feel that unless we accept the truth and acknowledge it, it does not become true. And hence we pretend that everything is alright, and as it should be.
Why is it really so hard for us to face our true feelings? Maybe it’s just scary for us. Or too much for us to handle. Or maybe, we are too comfortable with how the things are and do not want it to change. Its nt as bad as it seem once you have really faced the truth. But it’s not worth living a lie…
Human Nature…
November 8, 2009 at 7:03 pm | In General | 1 CommentTags: Choice, Decision, Experience, Feeling, Life, People, Question, Thought
We are so weird in the way we act at times. The Human Nature is a very complex and intriguing thing… It can be so highly unpredictable under circumstances at times. But when we know the entire situation, it just feels so predictable…
All our actions are based and governed on our instinct… And as living creatures, our basic instinct is protecting ourselves… And here, protecting ourselves also means making our lives more comfortable. Our protective nature extends to our loved ones too. So basically, whatever actions we take, are just to protect ourselves, or our loved ones or for betterment of our lives.
Our actions/decisions are mostly based on our feelings and not rationality or logic. And for good reason. Many times when we are faced with important decisions, we are in a tight position with two options. Do what is right, and do what feels right. Seldom does it happen that both these decisions overlap.
And the downfall of the “RIGHT” decision is that there is a very high chance of hurting ourselves or our loved ones. Hence we choose the safer option… We do what “FEELS RIGHT”.
And most of the times, it works out just fine for us… but at times when it doesn’t, things can get pretty ugly. For us and for the people around us.
If there is one thing I have learnt from my past and from the people around me, it is that: “You just need to be a jerk to break someone else’s heart; but you may just have to jerk up your entire life to break your own, in order to protect your loved ones…”
Thank you for the memories…
October 29, 2009 at 8:09 pm | In General | 1 CommentTags: College, Experience, Feeling, Life, Nostalgia, People, Thought
Sometimes it doesn’t take much to get you into Nostalgia mode… and I’m not just talking about the rush of memories…. I have just recently started using iTunes as my music player…. I was a jetAudio man before…
I added my entire music from my PC onto iTunes and was playing it on random. A song played… one I haven’t heard in a long time……. A long long time…. The time I was introduced to the song was around 4 years back and I was staying in the hostel at that time. But I haven’t heard the song in around 2 years or more… when it played today, I was not only reminded of the things that had happened, and the fun that I have had, but even the feeling of being in the hostel for the first time, of the difficulties faced, the joy of getting water after 3 days , the calm and serene midnight and early morning walks in campus, seeing sunrise and enjoying the morning tea with friends, watching movies till late night the night before an exam, and then the feeling of getting screwed the next day 
…
Some things you cant explain and never experience again… but once you have, it remains… FOR EVER!!!
Thank you for the memories dEE, Avi, Aloo, Mahaguru, Ric4, Rohit, Hitesh, Sunil, Chintu, and the countless others who I cant even picture right now…
All that’s left are some pictures, a few memories, and warm feelings.
The day I died…
October 7, 2009 at 7:55 am | In General, Personal | 3 CommentsTags: Corruption, Experience, Feeling, Life, Movie, People, Question, Rants, Thought
And I’m not kidding. I was officially declared dead by the Police Department for almost half a day. That is until I went there and even then they were adamant I was dead…
Lemme start from the beginning…
What happened was…
I had applied for my Passport on 4th August 2009. There were some holidays in between so I thought maybe the procedure is delayed ‘coz of that. But now it was 2 months and my friends who had applied with me had already got their passports ready and I was not yet called for the police verification also. So with my dad’s help, I got some internal contact in the PD and tried to find about the details. He checked it out and said the crime report was not sanctioned yet. And he did it in 2 hours by his influence. Then came the identity verification wherein I had to present there in person. He told me come to the station the next day at 3 pm. And so I did. And when I got there, the person behind the desk asked me the name of the applicant. I told him my name.
He glanced at the file and said the application has been returned. I asked why. He said the applicant 9is dead!!! I was like “WHAT???” I am standing right in front of you. And he was like, “but we called in the morning and the person on the other end said that the named person was dead. This discussion went on for 2 hours and he wasn’t even ready to rectify the error. Thankfully, my dad’s contact found someone else to do the job. And the whole thing was resolved. But the jackass behind the desk didn’t move a finger.
The kind man who helped us out came to our house in the evening and told us what had happened.
The verification application had been received by the PD from the Passport Office on 5th August 2009. And the day they “rediscovered” it, it was 6th October 2009. And apparently, if the file goes to the higher authorities, the people in the filing department are questioned as to why the delay. And this entire episode was a ploy by that asshole to save his own neck.
Things I learnt from this…
- The Police Department is more full of shit than they show in Bollywood movies…
- Corruption and laziness runs deep in government offices, more so in the police.
Come on mate… I thought the police was here to save people… not to “KILL” ‘em…
I am feeling
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